Every morning when I wake up, it is usually still dark outside. I love to open my curtains while it's still dark, and just watch the night sky light up into day. We were supposed to have a nasty storm this last weekend, and while we DID have a "storm" we have had MUCH worse. So, I wake up this morning, to this:
I know I am so blessed to be able to have such beautiful views every single day. A few years back I determined I was a winter person...mostly because I really really hate the heat of summer. I like the sunshine of summer, just not the heat, then we have mornings like today...a beautiful sunny day, and 45 degrees outside. Maybe I am just a not-so-hot summer lover? But it IS beautiful this morning.
I have been having a problem with contentedness (is that a word). It's kind of hard to admit, but I know God is dealing with me on it. I have no idea why, but I believe God has put Nebraska on my heart...perhaps we will move there someday, and I cannot adequately express to you how much my heart longs for Medford again....I LOVED IT UP THERE!! Well, that longing for Medford, and this thing in my heart for Nebraska has really led me to not enjoy my surroundings, and I feel a bit of shame over it. Don't get me wrong, I love my life, I love everyone in my life, and I love everything I do in my life....but there has been this "thing" in me that has always believed California is not our settling place, and in my desperate need to always be in God's will, sometimes I forget that maybe things like Medford, or Nebraska ARE God's will, just not God's timing, and I should enjoy it here while I can.
I feel as though I am rambling....can anyone relate with me?
I have determined that I am going to be content no matter where we are...besides, I can always go visit Medford, pretty much any time I want, right?
Have a wonderfully blessed day!!